Thursday, February 28, 2008
Well well what do you know.... Final Theory was a cinch.
Why is so so expensive to get a PDL? Why is the Service @ BBDC so slow. With only like 3 companies in singapore doing class 3, why are they just so Fucking slow.... I had to wait like 1.5 hours just to update my results. What the hell... Fucked up
Well it seems i have an affinity with Aleste, Rick and Sheena. LOL i met them 2 times within a span of 5 days... Hmm..... LOL
BOB!!!
6:38 PM
Tuesday, February 26, 2008
Dogs pee to mark their territory or things they "own".
Well apparently my dog has a thing for cars.... Expensive Cars...
He pee-ed on a BMW and a Lexus. LOL
Way to go Hunter!
BOB!!!
11:08 PM
Monday, February 25, 2008
I was playing with Deckan and was walking him downstairs when he ran away and i shouted Bear Bear come here. Whats gotten into me?
I miss bear bear. I wanna play with him
BOB!!!
8:18 PM
Church seems to have a calming effect. Somehow i still get the extremely weird dreams that wake me up every 2 hours thinking. oh well. I sorta found out a way to not get these dreams. Stay up till u can't stay up and the dreams will not come. it worked last night. Lets see what happens tonight.
A chat with Huiyi has made me understand alot of things. She was speaking to me about problems with her relationship and i learnt alot from the conversation that we had. Relationships are just so complex aren't they. Then again its not as complex is it. Its how complex we want it to be.
What do you want in life?
Quite frankly i dun have an answer myself
BOB!!!
9:14 AM
Saturday, February 23, 2008
The world is such peculiar place. in fact everything in the world is peculiar. Things that happen are just so unexplainable.
Today is such. Playing with ur pets would generally make you happy. Somehow it turned on me.I don't know why but it did.
Sadness filled the air. crouched in a corner of my bed in the cold dark room. broken with tears that never seem to stop.
BOB!!!
11:34 PM
Tuesday, February 19, 2008
To the confused lady,
Friendships are not overated. Neither are they a distraction. Perhaps you still don't know what you want. Friends laugh together, cry together and love each other dearly. Perhaps you see things in another light which nobody sees it your way. But ultimately they are there for you. Go on and have fun with them.
you're probably met a new friend who leads a lifestyle that you shun. Perhaps its not a lifestyle that you shun but cannot and will not accept because of your religion. You probably accepted him for who he is. But why can't u accept her for who she is? Its not much of a test when the only thing that you have to do is just to accept her for who she is. Don't forget you can be really stubborn and insist on your ways without even hearing someone out. You might not know that you have been doing that to her and to everyone but you are. perhaps its just a phase for her. Learn to accept her. Open up. Love her for who she is. You might never know when things might work out well :) Disapproving a lifestyle and accepting a friend for who she is, are totally different Perhaps seperating them as different issues will help you.
Relationships. It is something that binds 2 ppl together. But ultimately its a bond of feelings that 2 people have for each other. Like i said perhaps you have a different perspective of it. But everything is really simple actually.
Over caring and giving in to much probably lead into someone feeling contained but thats not what i wanted to do in the first place. it was obvious that someone was craving for it till it caused them to be contained. I have learnt alot from this and perhaps grown from it. but my feelings for this particular person hasn't changed. I thought that it was over and i have grown out of it. But when i read that this particular person was injured. I got really worried. I got Kan Cheong. My heart rate accelerates, adrenaline rushing, palms all sweaty, guts growing butterflies,breaking out in cold sweat and lastly feelings of helplessness. Its these moments of helplessness thats when you realize how much you love someone. And now i know that i really really love that someone. Regardless I will always be there for this person.
Lastly, Life is not as crude as what you think it is. Yes you can't bring anyone along when you leave this world. How about making it more meaningful for yourself and for the rest of the ppl in this place that you live in right now.
BOB!!!
9:13 AM
Monday, February 18, 2008
Silly careless woman. Be more careful. Take better care of urself.
BOB!!!
11:29 AM
Travelling to 2 places for classes isn't what i like to do. Its extremely boring especially when the lesson at the other location is BORING! Travelling distance is only 15mins. Yes its near. But thats the bad thing. Theres 2 hours break in the middle and u have so much time in between that you have nothing to do... Gawd... I feel like skipping my afternoon class.
My phone has finally given up on me. It can't charge and now its dead. So please send me ur numbers. Thanks!
According to sources, Ford is trying to install CNG on all their cars. PPl who are looking for cheaper cars should have a look at Ford's Mondeo. Its got a deep boot so fitting a CNG tank isn't much of a problem. Another good thing about it is it has a cooling effect when you are using the CNG to power you car. I'd love to get a CNG car. Then again, i have to get my driver's licsence first. LOL
Advance Theory 28 Feb 4:30 - 5:30
BOB!!!
9:07 AM
Sunday, February 17, 2008
Well I tried this new indian Nissin instant noodle. Well its not really new but its new to me.. Its a product of india so I dun think u can get it in singapore. Curry flavour, u'd think it would be fantastic. U r so wrong. Its horrible. Its atrocious. basically fucked up. Even the chicken i boiled taste nicer that it. YUCK!!!! don't even think of trying it.
I went to church alone today. My first time alone in sg! It was good :)
BOB!!!
10:16 PM
If you're concern about ur parents why don't you just go and visit them. I don't understand why my dad doesn't want to go over and see my grand parents. He's like are they okay? Ur grand father feeling better already or not? can walk faster already? I'm not a spy, neither am i someone who can take over your place. You are their son and you should go see them. Regardless of what you have bickered about they still want to see you and i'm sure you want to see them as well. So why in the world do you not go over? Is it becoz of your EGO??? Too proud to admit that you are wrong? Throwing things on the floor when you are proven wrong by them? Oh come on, grow up!
Just go and see them.
You're probably never going to read this but i do wish you go see them. Admit ur mistakes and drop your ego.
BOB!!!
6:52 PM
Saturday, February 16, 2008
Cousin's place last night. had the dog and cat all over me again. Yuck. All the slob and stuff... Good thing was the cable TV and the bitter nut cracker. Love that. Its awesome.
It was comforting staying there. Deccan is quite a human actually. He can tell if u're upset and does silly stuff to make u happy. Slobbing on the cat and smacking his paws into ur chest and lick you all over the face. Running around with his ball and slamming against the wall coz he can't stop in time. Pushing you around so he can entertain me LOL!! It was sweet of him. He even let me hug him to sleep HAHA!!! i needed that.
Everything is happening so fast. I need a breather.
BOB!!!
1:13 PM
Friday, February 15, 2008
Things are just going to be so different now. I'm fucking crying so bad that my dog thinks i've gone nuts or something.
Fabs.
We met through some weird ass way. It was a good meeting where we later had some drinks with chester at some ulu pub. Then it came to the many hang outs with chester trying to meet the group. But unfortunately not many turned up. So there was us and we just hung out. Chester than left for aussy and it was down to 2. Clubbings at rouge and ppl tot we were gay.
Many seatings at holland V with the usual teh peng and coke with salt... And the many ciggys we smoked.... The times where we went to NS and the many tok kok sessions about them and the most random topics like the russian sub and shit. Zouk with chang wen and hayashi. Live impact with Jun Jie and you got cheated by annie. Always being there when i needed someone. The prawning sessions which we caught like not many prawns on our first try and plenty on the second. We didn't even go for the third. LOL. Dancing at the Lesbo night last night. Drinking Tequilas, beer , vodka lime and vodka cranberries. Those were the bomb. It was fucking awesome since the start and it will always be awesome.
To Fabs
Thanks for everything. The emotional support that you have given me. The sparring sessions in front of your house in the night. The many things that we have done together. I'll always remember them. I await your return and then we can go for our 3rd session of prawning and the lah kopi sessions. I'll miss you dude. I'm sorry i can't send you off. Coz i dun really think that i'll be in any state to make u and happier. I'll try to open up more.... Prawning , drinking, clubbing, tok kok, lah kopi, cars, top gear, gurkas, everything.... i will never forget them. In fact i'm already missing them now. Bon voyage, have fun in sidney. Meet some new friends. Drive arond in the lexus (just be careful though, its quite expensive lol) make merry. Have a good life. Keep in touch. I'll always be there for you though i'm quite a distance away. Just give me a call or drop me a msg on msn and i'll be there. Lastly.... I love you my friend.... Its hard but i'll await your return... :) Drop me a msg or something when u get there.
BOB!!!
3:49 PM
Fabs and were like counting the number of bouquets which we can see in HV today and in a short span of 3 hours we saw like 20+ of them. Ppl just like to go to HV for some romantic affair.
Today was lesbian night and boy was it fun. Met 3 of them today. Dorothy, April and Wun. Had quite a bit of fun performing for them. They liked me!! LOL Was kinda interesting to be dancing with a lesbian and a gay dude at the same time. In fact i'd say its loads of Fun!!! I don't mind going out with them again. LOL. Michelle was crazy as always and Fabs leaving tomorrow. Deeply sadden by his depature to Australia and i'd definitely miss him.
Dude i can't help but say this. I'm gonna miss u.
BOB!!!
4:39 AM
Thursday, February 14, 2008
Well yesterday was everyone's birthday, today is the celebration of love. Everybody will be in 2s.
got date with 2 tonight and thats gonna be some problem. They are vicious and probably will just cause so much trouble. But then again. I don't really have to talk to them or buy them flowers or chocolates or anything. Pretty amazing that i can save all the mula especially when i'm meeting 2. LOL. Things that i might have to buy for them are doggy treats and cat treats.
LOL Deccan and lily. Cya tonight.
PS. they are my cousin's pets :)
BOB!!!
10:46 AM
Wednesday, February 13, 2008
This songs been buzzing in the blob of solid mass on my shoulders. Thats not much lyrics in this song but i just like it. Its one of the top 80s songs. Made popular in August 1983. Damn its older than me.
Sweet Dreams by Eurythemics
Sweet dreams are made of this
Who am I to disagree?
I travel the world
And the seven seas--
Everybody's looking for something.
Some of them want to use you
Some of them want to get used by you
Some of them want to abuse you
Some of them want to be abused.
(Hold your head up--Keep your head up--MOVIN' ON)
BOB!!!
11:05 PM
Tuesday, February 12, 2008
Legs are aching from the jog i had yesterday. Boy was it a good one. Haven't really jogged for abit. Gonna keep it up!
The passion tea with rashberry syrup is still my favourite from starbucks. It only seems Pusty is the only one who can make what i like. LOL way to go pusty!!!! Met the guys there and had a good long bonding session. Guess who i saw there. Robert from poly. He's a HSBC financial planner now. Everyone is deviating from what they studied in poly. LOL. I also met Ace there. Was kinda suprise to see him cos he's like totally MIA-ed. Same old weird self none the less. He's better off drunk. LOL
had something interesting that happened in school yesterday. But i'm not going to talk about it yet. Maybe next time or maybe never.
i got the weirdest invite from khloe's mum. She called and invited me to go over to her house to pai nian. Then she goes on telling me that they broke up lah and stuff... I don't really care about it anymore. Khloe's mum has been really good and nice to me. So i'm going to spend some time with her and see how she's doing. Thursday will be the day that i get to see the cats again. Wonder if they still recoginze me. Mimi and Zena the little devils in disguise!
BOB!!!
10:53 AM
Monday, February 11, 2008
I know its a weird request. I know how i feel. I know it all.
Think hard, think long, think deeply. In what way. Whatever. Tell me everything. Nothing but the truth!No excuses! Thats all i want :)
BOB!!!
9:15 AM
Sunday, February 10, 2008
Things are beginning to fit in.... I realise i'm not affected by it much anymore. It's been good. would have been better if i know more. I'm just going to be me now. I don't want to have my fake front anymore. I don't want to be nice all the time. I just want to fucking be me. I know what i want and i'll work for it. Right now its just going to be me having fun.
Met the 2 girls at impact. Long time since i've seen her. Her mascara is some super strong one lah.. Until now still cannot wash off my shirt. The other is a nice charbo that always brighten my day haha. Its been some time since.... I miss the good old times when she just came back from Australian. That was the bomb.
BOB!!!
4:29 AM
Saturday, February 9, 2008
First up i'm dialing wrong numbers the whole of today. Its either my phone is whacked or I'm whacked. There are things which people want me to explain. but i don't think it is a point to explain for the person who likes you doesn't need it, and the person who dislikes you wont believe it.
BOB!!!
6:52 PM
Well first it was impact now it's icon... another farewell party..... LOL don't really feel like going.. I drank way pass the recommended dosage for this week already... Wonder if i should go. Anyways Chester was going through his stuff and chanced upon his stash of Ciggys and he gave a packet of Djee Sum Soe... Some super strong indo ciggys. I'm just going to try one and give the rest away. Its like smoking tar or something. Try it once and stop forever. i don't want to do things to harm my body... God has given me life and i shall treasure his gift to me. Cheers.
BOB!!!
4:40 PM
Friday, February 8, 2008
Yawn... Yet another boring day. Everyone's gone missing lol. Sian..... one day of holiday , may mins of boredom. LOL
Went to visit my grandma and grandpa again today. Was quite uneventful. met uncles and aunties and got some red packets. Nothing else. Damn shitty. What made things worse was that my dad didn't even go visit my grand parents. Some fucked up son he is. I mean how can you not visit ur own parents on chinese new year... my god.... who was the one who yang him when he was young. No shame arh... I don't see how he is repaying his gratitude to them in anyway. I'm pissed!!! I'm hurt!!! I'm upset!!!!! Some shithead he is
BOB!!!
10:14 PM
Impact was awesome.... I didn't know th new band City Cats were that good. We were just loofing and drinking. Enjoyed it alot.. Its a long time since i heard any thai music as well and Heck, they were really good. The best that i have ever heard.
Anyways i heard impact is going to move to east coast. Which is even further away i don't even know if i'll ever go there coz its so damn far away. Anyways what i really want to write about were these 4 dreams that i had. I can't remember all of them but vague parts of it.
1... I was skydiving and then chute didn't open and i landed on some hay....
2... I got stitches sewed on my lips and this guy came to remove it for me. I somehow knew that he doesn't know how to remove the stitches but i still allowed him. He took one end of the stitch and just yanked it out. Blood was gushing out and i just pinned the asshole on the ground and spat on him followed by me returning him a favor for what he did. I never knew i could be so violent. LOL
3... I was walking along some deserted field and there was nothing above or anything just the sky. I was just walking as that the only thing that i could do there. I looked up and got hit by this big thing that landed on my head. Next thing i know i was bounded down by some african tribe
4... As for the last one, i shall keep it a secret wahahah lol
no more impact in a long long time......
BOB!!!
1:13 PM
Thursday, February 7, 2008
HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!! Its a joyous time for all families. Families reunite, families sitting down and having a good chat. Everyone suppose to be happy lol. Well cept for me.... I'm been home for the past 24 hours and i do mean 24 hours. I calculated. I dun think we are going anywhere for CNY this year. If we did, we'd be at my maternal grand parents house. Till now no news. Aren't we suppose to be visiting? This is indeed a weird CNY.... I've got nothing to do and i want to go out. But everyone is visiting so who can i ask? I still wanna watch my CJ7 and i don't want to watch it alone.....
BOB!!!
12:51 PM
Wednesday, February 6, 2008
The tailsman is up..... its so fucking boring that i keep thinking of things on my own. Things that i already stop thinking about. Things that i dun want to think off... The deep deep past that i had. The thought of it just makes me shudder. I can't stop thinking of them and its kinda spooking me and i hate the feeling. I miss everyone. I'll miss fabs when he's gone... He's going to aussy to study and i dunno when he will be back. There's not many ppl who live near that i can look for anymore.
TV is boring. Everything now is boring. Coz i got to stay at home while everybody is having fun and making merry outside while i'm stuck because i have no where to go whe its all time for everyone to head home. I shall find a way to break this Lunar new year tailsman curse.... Hate it.... BAH!!!!!!
PPl just keep msging me happy new year and stuff.. But i'm not happy.. coz i'm stuck at home with no one to talk to and have fun with. I want out. I want OUT!!! STOP msging me.... GIve me peace!!!!! I need peace..... God please help me...
BOB!!!
11:02 PM
I got my clothes for CNY and i walked all over orchard today but i realised i only bought stuff from Marks & Spencers. The clothes there are quite nice and they have my size.. Wee.... I dun need to get XL for my tops L can already. Plus the cutting are just nice for me.... 2 tops and 1 pair of jeans totaling $70 is that cheap or what. Its seldom i get to purchase clothes that are this cheap for me and i'm glad that M&S allowed me to do so.
Reunion Dinners in a short while, but its going to take a super long time. Different places to go. Different Food to eat. I better watch my diet or i'm going to grow fat and spoil goal of losing weight. LOL....
I so want to go out but i cannot..... Damn sian.... Why does my dad have to be so into feng shui? He has to seal the door every year with some tailsman or something and nobody can enter once it is sealed. He'll only remove the seal at like 8am tomorrow. So if i go out where do i head to when everyone has gone home?? LOL sleep on the streets or something i suppose.. LOL!!! It sucks to have this type of restriction on a joyous day but what can i do about it?
BOB!!!
5:05 PM
Monday, February 4, 2008
Well well... I thought i was down.... After some magic performances for fab and his new found friend, they kinda perked me up LOL.... Her name is Michelle and i must say she's quite the loof. First she ate my card and then demanded me to do this and that for her lol. She's one weird ass audience lol... It kinda sparked me thinking what other weird and interesting ways a spectator can do to a magician. LOL! I mean i never would have expected to see someone trying to vanish their own card by eating it. LOL!!!! There's plenty of weird ass things that ppl can do!!! I've had cards stolen and placed in their back pocket, stuffed into bras and even panties, but never ever eaten! My god, she's one weird ass spectator. I never expected myself to laugh so much till i cried just from having someone eating my card....
BOB!!!
10:28 PM
Arh.. Lunar New Year is in like 2 days... Its going to be the year of the squeaks. One of the few years that i kinda dislike.... But nobody should be bothered by my comments cause its just me haha... Things are just not going well for many people that i know or have cared for in the past (in pass i mean way past) LOL.
Didn't sleep well last night. Been tossing and turning and toss and turning and you get the point and the last time i remembered looking at my phone was like 5 am... Shit.... Bad bad headache now.....
Shit i haven't bought my new year clothes.... Need to get shirts and stuff... One shitty thing is i needa get it done by today..... Who wants to go with me?
BOB!!!
9:42 AM
Yay i passed my first exam... 885/1000 whoohooo!!!!
Not bad right.... first exam after like 5 years plus this exam the passing mark is 700.
I bet i deserve a pet on my back.
Pet Pet LOL
Hehe I think i got 3rd in the class too wahahahah
BOB!!!
2:15 AM
